Tuesday, September 19, 2017

End of Campaign and Beginning of Forgiveness

Two separate audio links are posted here. 

The first contains two important announcements. 1) Should we consider going to a 6:30 weekday morning Mass? and 2) explaining how we are ending the parish building campaign and allowing people to reallocate up to 60% of their donations to other parish projects. 

Then the homily, respectably short due to the length of the announcements (<5 min), reminds us that forgiveness is not when we can finally tell an offender it is no big deal. No, forgiveness is when we are honest about what happened and how bad it hurt and still choose as Jesus did.

Announcements (campaign announcement starts at 2:40)

Homily (text below)

Mark Twain famously said: "It ain't the parts of the Bible that I can't understand that bother me, it's the parts that I do understand."

When I was younger I first heard this in a slightly different format: "Some people read the Bible and worry about the parts they don't understand. I worry about the parts of the Bible that I do understand."

And when I first heard that line, what I first thought of was today's Gospel: You will be forgiven as much as you forgive.


That bothered me because—I don't know about you—but that scares the snot out of me. 

That's the hardest thing to say in the Our Father: Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.

Jesus tells us again and again that how much we measure out forgiveness to others is how much we'll be forgiven by God. 

And that scares me. 

Because I don't like it. 

Because  I'm bad at it. 

Because a lot of the time I just don't want to forgive. 


Because it hurts.  

And we've been hurt.

And one of the ways we deal with hurt is that we sit there in anger at the other people. 

Let's be honest: that's a very human thing to do. 



A couple of years ago, I found out that a person I loved deeply hurt a member of my family. 

I found out much later.

So angry. So betrayed. Felt impossible to forgive.


I think we all have had some version of that experience

Different things happen to different people but we all have an experience of "I don't think I can forgive you."

Or: I don't want to forgive you. 

All been in some version.


And that's why the words of Jesus are there.

Because it's not easy.


When I was here seven years ago as an assistant, I had a conversation with someone about the harm that had been done to her.

"I can't forgive."

"I think it's wrong to say we have to forgive." 

"I think that's the one thing Jesus got wrong."

<Ok. good luck with that!>


She really felt Jesus was wrong because it felt like if she forgave she was saying that they didn't do wrong, or that it wasn't a big deal, or don't worry about it. 

I think that's what we fear. That "I forgive you" means "eh, no big deal."


Kind of the exact opposite of forgiveness

If I'm saying, "I've forgotten or enough time has passed; I'm over it," then I don't even really need that choice to forgive. 

I don't need the virtue/strength of forgiveness. 

Then it's not forgiveness anymore. It's something else. 


Real forgiveness is when I say:

I know what happened.

I know it fully and how bad it was.

It still hurts.

And I'm making a choice.


That's what forgiveness really is.

It's not just shoving it away.

Real forgiveness is acknowledging it.



Think about it:

Jesus over here on 11th Station:

Father, forgive them...

Martyrs: skin flayed off; burned alive

Pray for your persecutors 


They haven't forgotten 

They're literally killing then at that moment

They're ripping out their entrails 

Still saying "I forgive"

Clearly a choice

Not an "I'm over it."

Or "not that bad"


They are saying, "In spite of all you're doing, and exactly because of what you're doing, I'm choosing to do the harder thing."



Jesus doesn't say it in Gospel, but based on other things Jesus says, we can imagine him saying something like: 

"Forgive those who hurt you. For if you only forgive for those things which "you've gotten over", what credit is that? Don't the pagans and tax collectors do the same?


Anybody can eventually "get over something"

It takes a Christian, it takes grace, it takes power from God to forgive those who we still feel keenly have hurt us. 




So we need to hear those words today and be challenged.

We have to hear these words—as hard as anything else in the Bible—

—as hard as any of the beatitudes

As hard as anything asked of us—Turn the other cheek, go the extra mile—

It's so hard: To forgive willingly...

It's as hard as you can get.



But Jesus doesn't ask us to do it all alone.

He will give the grace to heal.


But that means we don't just wait till "the feeling is right" to forgive. 

We make the hard choice now to forgive, and he will, over time, give us the graces of moving on. 


Saturday, September 2, 2017

Shebna, Eliakim, Peter & the Church

Jesus names Peter. Jesus names Peter as the Rock which will hold firm against all assaults. Jesus follows Isaiah and names Peter as his master-of-the-palace for when he is gone. Can we go any deeper into the story of Jesus, Peter, and the Church on earth? Yes, but it isn't always pretty.

(I had hoped all week to get the time to get my notes-text expanded to full-text, but I never got to it. Here is the audio and what notes I had. You can follow along better than most weeks, at least. Also, yeah, there is a lot of baby noise in the background, but hey, "If your church ain't crying, it's dying.")


21st A: Peter, Shebna, and Eliakim


2 weeks ago: Broke, Woke, Bespoke

Not the only way to look at things

Good, better, best

"Go a little further"



•Basic

Jesus is really happy that Peter figured out who he is. 

You are Peter, either giving him a new name or reinforcing what he named him earlier in John



•Further: fired up homily

This is the beginning of the church

First use of it

And Peter is named the bedrock of the church...

...at that Church's bedrock, foundational moment



Matthew goes whole hog

Mark, important thing was what Peter said: you are the Messiah

Matthew:

1 from God; "flesh & blood" 

2 confirms name, = rock 

3 upon rock

4 gates of hell >> infallibility

5 keys >> ability to govern

6 bind >> make decisions

Jesus will tell all apostles the can forgive sins Easter Sunday night 

Only Peter has keys and can bind 

Proof that J founded church on Peter. 



He's promised that the church will never fail. 

Always teach the truth

Right to govern: set rules and make hard choices  


And it follows that from there, if the gates will never prevail, the next generation must have same guarantees

So these promises follow Peter and successors



Heard before

Very common, Catholic exposition on Matthew 16:18

"Great to have a Pope; great to be Catholic!"



•Further: OT

Really on-it preacher looks at 1st reading too. 

Isaiah

Master of the palace, lord of the house, major domo, 

Shebna

Taken away

Eliakim

Signs of office, title


(Like a father)


Key = authority

Then actually describes the authority

Opens shut, shuts open



Unmistakeable parallel: 

Keys and double binding

Jesus clearly copying image

Makes Peter the master of his palace

Watcher while he is away

Vicar

Fr. Rowan isn't really the assistant pastor; 

Properly speaking: parochial vicar



"Over the house of Judah"

"Like a father"


Parallel: Peter not just given verbal authority.

if a reflection of Isaiah and Master of palace, he's saying you are king when the king isn't around

Jesus is head of the church

Pope is "visible head of the church on earth"



(Scott Hahn)

 Peg ~ rock


"Hoo Ahh! Now it's really great to be a Catholic. 

Not just proof, but wisdom and assuring!"




•Further (I won't say furthest, b/c there's always more to find, but is the deepest I will go today


"Man, I like these OT parallels!

Is the more?"


Yeah, but you might not like all of it. 



"I will fix him as a peg in a firm place,a seat of honor for his ancestral house;

On him shall hang all the glory of his ancestral house: its offspring and offshoots—all its lesser vessels, from the bowls to all the jars.

On that day, says the LORD of hosts, the peg fixed in a firm place shall give way, break off and fall, and the weight that hung on it shall be no more. The LORD has spoken.

End of chapter. 

<hands drop>

Oh man. 

I told you might not want to hear it. 


Just heard the most triumphal line of God bestowing his favor and trust on his right hand man in the Old Testament. 

And seem that Jesus was clearly making parallel with that for his right hand man in New. 

But wow. 

"the peg fixed in a firm place shall give way, break off and fall, and the weight that hung on it shall be no more."

So much for Peter the rock!

....

But is it? 


Did J pick Peter because courageous?

Because sinless?

Because prudent and wise?



No. 

He picked him, because he picked him. 


There is always a mystery in what we call "divine election"


When God chooses someone for a task

And that's often not whom we would think to choose. 



But the final verses are even deeper


No man can bear that weight

No person can be the peg with absolutely everything hanging on him. 

All humans will fail, especially under that load

Peter will fail him

Heck, Peter will fail him next week, 

Before Matthew Ch 16 is finished. 



You could've had a smarter, tougher Jewish man like Paul and he couldn't have held that weight. 

So the final lines of Isaiah 22 tell us lots


God knows no man is fit to be the vicar of Christ

No human can be the rock on their own merits

This position, this charism of being the visible head of the church on earth only works because of God


The rock is no rock without the one who gave the name and said, "I will build my church"

It's Jesus' church

Only a fool would think it's Peter's church. 


God chooses weak men and puts them over an institution that is in the realist sense "too big to fail"

Because millions of souls depend on her always teaching the truth 

So God gives graces to the whole...

And special grace to the unfit, flawed man who has to bear that title Vicar of Christ and Successor of St. Peter

Not for his sake but for ours

So we can be safe



Last lines of Isaiah 22 are perfect. 

We'll never then be confused

Never think that the pope is the savior

We know he alone can't hold the weight

But God can


God can give those graces to always protect the church

God does give those graces

And he actually does it through a fragile, flawed, imperfect human being:

His vicar

The vicar of Christ on earth 





Monday, August 14, 2017

The Christian Story: Reclaiming Theological Imagination

If you ask Harry Potter fans for a compelling quote from the books, I bet most of them would choose something from the later volumes, or at least a line from the usual deep-stuff-with-Dumbledore that happens at the end of each book. Fair enough. But I think a crucial nugget of J.K. Rowling's thought is found in Book 1, Chapter 1 when we are told: "[Mr. Dursley] hurried to his car and set off for home, hoping he was imagining things, which he had never hoped before, because he didn't approve of imagination." 

Long before Ms. Rowling tests her characters in the crucible of good and evil, she puts her readers through an entrance exam: Are you open to my flights of imagination and fairy tale or are you a full time employee of the efficient, hard-boiled, workaday world? A similar test famously opens The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry and continues throughout as a hallmark of someone's depth.

This week's homily is a sequel of sorts to last Sunday's sermon on beauty, love, dance, and worship. Josef Pieper, who was mentioned last week, gives warning in his book Leisure, the Basis of Culture about how we can become (by our own choice) captives, jailed in the workaday world. A few things can shake us and momentarily break us free from the prison—things like love and death. But we can also choose to live as people who don't only see the world exclusively as something practical and something we have to explain every part of. 

In the first part I focused on beauty, symbol, dance and ritual as things natural to us which argue that our natural state is not one of sheer practicality. In this second part I examine how our virtual obsession with stories, narrative, and imagination is a sign post that we are more than just explainers.

But we have to give ourselves permission to be storytellers. And we have to give ourselves permission to do so in fields besides sports, politics, and celebrity gossip. The Christian life will never be boring if the people who claim to love it are brave enough to dance it like they mean it and tell it like they believe it. But to do that we have to swim upstream against the trend we Christians have made for ourselves in recent decades. 

(Note: All four Masses' homilies had significant differences. I tried to present here the best blend of at least the latter two.)


19th Sunday of the Year: Story

On the internet right now there’s a fun little meme/word game to describe something at levels of bad, better, and best:

“Broke, woke, bespoke”

(Don't feel bad if you don't know the word "bespoke". I only learned it 4 years ago. It’s used to describe a suit or dress made from scratch or your measurements. So, a step above tailored.)


Apply to our readings:

Broke: Elijah in cave and God speaks. 

Woke: Elijah in cave. God not in the wind, not in earthquake, not in fire. Is in the tiny whispering sound.

BespokeAfter his greatest victory, against 450 prophets of Baal, Elijah has it snatched out of hands by Jezebel his archnemesis.

Races Ahab and a thunderstorm down Mt. Carmel and flees to escape them.

Elijah wants to die, lies down in desert. Told to continue to to Horeb. 

Horeb is another name for old Mt. Sinai, but God does even more for Elijah than for Moses whom he covered in a cleft so he couldn’t see God. Then he shows all the hallmarks of the old covenant:

But God was not in wind: he had raced the storm down Carmel
Not in earthquake; not in fire: he had seen that consume the sacrifice 

Not in those things.

Whispering sound 
Something different
Elijah listens
Converse with God: "I'm old, alone, tired."

God ends: "I know you have seen much. I have a final mission for you..."



Which one gets us?



What am I getting at here?

We were made for stories. Our minds were made for stories.


Think of the best homily you've heard in your life...

Can you recall more than 3 things out of it? (nobody can)

What were they?

Stories.

Maybe, images and analogies.


Take note of that. What sticks with us: Stories and using imagination. 



This homily is a sort of "Part 2" to last week’s.

Encourage you to go find that homily and read or listen.

Easiest: go to parish website, click "Father's blog". Takes you to my site.

Or Google my name + father talks too fast


Not because I want you to gobble up my stuff, but
  1. it's summer and people are gone a lot
  2. I'm gonna quote that homily a lot in the next year 


Last week: Beauty, wonder, love, fascination 

Image: The ballerina who was asked to explain her dance and replied:  "If I could have said it I wouldn't have needed to dance it."


Talked about: All these things we do, but that we can't quite explain. 

From the weird ways children express affection, to folding the flag off a casket, to why churches are tall and we use incense. 


We have this desire to be practical and to explain.

Sometimes we can't. 


We strike our breasts in contrition. Fall in faces on Good Friday. Ring bells at the consecration.


Why?

I don't know exactly.  "If I could say it, I wouldn't need to dance it."



Two things argue that—while modern man focuses on the practical and the explainable—it's not our natural setting as human beings. 

Our love of beauty: world of symbols and extravagance 

Our love of story: world of imagination and narrative 


This is what excites us, but we buy into our own self-created lie that we have to make everything rational and practical. 

I asked in last blog: "Have we Christians limited ourselves to prose, and then been annoyed that there isn't enough poetry in the world?"



We love stories

If we are honest, it's the main way we process our world

A big story

and our story

And sense that we're part of a bigger story


Whole branch of psychology: narrative psychology 

"What's our own story?" (Personal narrative) 

"What's the story we hear about the world?" (Controlling narrative of how we understand everything) 



Anybody here ever find themselves kind of narrating their own story in their head as they go about their day?

When I first heard somebody in the realm of narrative psychology talk about this tendency I assumed it's because my generation grew up with Ferris Bueller's narrating his Day Off and with Morgan Freeman narrating our movies to us. 

Presumed it a fault: Self-reflexive; something from a “Me generation"

Something more to be made fun of than to be encouraged.


But psychologists and historians of human psychology seem to think that all people do this. 

In a tribal societies, you sit around the campfire and hear the stories of your people and you picture yourself in your story as part of some big story

In Ancient Greece: epics, Iliad and Odyssey 



We have then a crisis on Christianity:

We are not only failing to trust that beauty and symbols can speak deeper than words, but also a failure of storytelling.

People fall away because we aren't dancing like we mean it, or aren't telling the story like we believe it.


And we have the greatest story. 

From Adam to Abraham. 
Moses to Jesus. 
Peter to Paul to John Paul the Second

"Wait. Are you saying people should believe or not believe something just because of how enthusiastic (or not) the messenger is?"

No. 

I'm not talking about mythologies now

We get excited for Narnia, or Middle Earth, or Westeros exactly because the stories are well told. 

It's all they have.


We can make our arguments for historical truth

That was the entirety of the Easter homily

Can make the case

But most people don't live by logical arguments. 


Our failing as Christians:

Don't tell story like it's really true,

Don't tell story like it matters,

Fail to explain that the story is ongoing and we've been invited in. 




You may object: Yeah, Father, but that’s not me. 

I'm a 5th generation farmer. 

I'm so Czech I've got dumplings and gravy flowing through my veins.

Just a salt of the earth Nebraskan.


I'm not a story guy.

I'm not an imagination guy.



The heck you ain't....

Tell me about 1994

Tell me about Tommie Frazier and the blood clots

Tell me Brook

Tell me the story of Matt Turman, the hometown boy, and Oklahoma State and Kansas State

Tell me about Cory Schlesinger and the beauty of fullback traps 


See, I knew you had it in you



Every Nebraska becomes a mix of William Shakespeare and Garrison Keillor when football comes up.


We love stories but we only allow ourselves to let them only into certain corners of our mind. 

Weird. 

Modern Church has said we need reason, not imagination.

Need theology manuals, not stories.

This is a mistake.

We need to reclaim theological imagination.



Speaker at a priest study day: Americans claim to be eminently practical, but totally give themselves over to narrative and imagination in three things: celebrities, politic, sports

1) Celebrities & Reality TV

Kim and Kanye, 
Brad and Angelina,
Are Nikki and Miley fighting?
How are Selena and Taylor doing? 

The Bachelorette: did she make the right call this last week?



2) Politics: controlling the narrative

Reagan and Bill Clinton; Trump and Obama 

All about the narrative. 

Get that head of steam of people buying into your story

Whether: businessman who is going to return America to greatness; the self-made man who understands the coal miner and the auto worker

Or: son of an immigrant, married to the great-great-great-granddaughter of a slave, who studied law at Harvard and became the first black President

It all about the narrative


3) Sports. 
Biggest. 

Everything is an epic poem told by Homer

But in the voice of the guy from NFL Films: "The frozen tundra of Lambeau field"  

Championship season story
Heisman trophy story


Bob Costas has made millions from storytelling

You don't care about the women's 200 butterfly 

But then the Rudy music starts…

And Bob: "She grew up in a tiny town in Belarus…”

“She and her brothers carried the water from the well each day to fill the town pool after they milked their goats .”

And on and on...

Tonight she represents little Zajamačnaje at the Olympic Games."

And you’re rooting for her; crying when she wins.


Suddenly care about the South African ping pong team. 

Because he activates our imagination. 


People say church is boring for them. 

Only because we won't give it the benefit of the doubt we give to ESPN, and the Bachelorette, and Game of Thrones. 


We suspend our disbelief and turn on our imagination for presidential candidates

Why not for our faith? 

We have the capacity to see the story, 
to get excited about it, 
put ourselves in it. 

Take away that prejudice. 



The Bible story

Crazy, twisting, God-bless-the-broken-road kind of story of Jesus' family

And yet we hesitate to engage.

Jeff Cavins has spend his adult life trying to get people to read 14 books of the Bible twice, before trying to read the whole bible so they can see the core story.



Church story

Church history: Fr. Rowan and I have both taught Church History and it’s hard for us that people don’t get excited.

I spent 5 years in Lincoln, 5 in Hastings and kids whined about Church History and I wanted to cry, because I love it.

But you gotta tell it like the epic movie it is. 


And the story goes on: Last year I told the story of the Czech saints using the stained glass windows and the parishes of this county. And you ate it up! Why? Because I told the story using lots of little stories.


Reacquaint ourselves:

Grade school kids hear it all as story. We lose some of that in high school. And as adults we have become utterly practical and boring.

Consider taking RCIA and hearing the story again. Coming soon on Tuesdays.


Diocese just unveiled our new Pope Benedict XVI School of Catechesis. Four semesters, six hours on one Saturday a month, high level adult formation in the Bible, creed, sacraments, prayer, morality, church history, and faith and reason.

(And since I'm one of the schleps they talked into helping with it, I should probably promote it.)


Start reading our Bibles on our own.


Reconnect. 
Get in the story. 
Activate out imagination


Conclude with a quote from a movie and book, The Lord of the Rings, in which characters actually discuss whether or not they would ever be part of stories others read. 


Frodo : I can't do this, Sam.

Sam : I know. It's all wrong By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories Mr. Frodo.

The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy.

But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass.

Those were the stories that stayed with you.That meant something.

Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now.

Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. Because they were holding onto something.

Frodo : What are we holding onto, Sam? 
Sam : That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for.




[9:00 conclusion]
We’re part of a great story, and our stories fit in that.

We know there is stuff worth fighting for and we have to recognize our place in that story

Dive into the story: recognize its glory in our lives and our chance to be glorious in it as well.



[10:30 conclusion]
See the story

Give ourselves permission to get into it again

Get swept up in narrative, and see it as a story that we are living in too.